I’m at a point in my life where I literally force myself to study the tactics and rules used by the business professionals to become rich. Even if I have lots and lots of cash, I do not plan on scamming people. My Hood River community must have a business like no other, and they’re going to get the benefits of feeling well without being ripped off.
Throughout my teenage years, I was lost, and I had no clue of who I was as a person. Insecurity, sweaty palms, negative thoughts, cravings for sex and love, and much much more were flooding my dopamine-lacking brain and lethargic body. I didn’t even have the balls to talk to women I was attracted to.
But today is a new day. I’ve had a few relapses. I used to ejaculate tons and tons, but now I’m building my self-control. (Masturbating and watching porn is a thing of the past.) I know what you’re thinking: I was a nasty man. The truth of the matter is that I had issues that no one seemed to help me with.
During the day, I seem like a timid, soft-spoken individual. Women may think that I’m shy, or that I have low self-esteem. And yet, I am not shy or timid nor do I have low self-esteem. I was just scared to approach beautiful women. I was afraid of rejection. I felt as if rejection was similar to dying. Eventually, as I progressed into my twenties, I got over my fear. Do you know how I did it? I realized that it was just an illusion. Women are actually more afraid of talking to men than men are afraid of talking to women. By not expressing myself, I was holding back on so much.
One of my goals for now is to enjoy my years of youth. I have a little less than ten years left before I turn 30, twenty years until I turn 40, thirty years until I turn 50, and fourty years until I turn 60. Sure, I will definitely be able to live past sixty, but I can’t procrastinate and put off all of my goals until I’m a senior citizen.
I was just scared to approach beautiful women. I was afraid of rejection. I felt as if rejection was similar to dying.
It’s almost 3:00 am in the morning, and I’m almost finished writing this blog. One thing I know is that I’ve been putting off so much in my life because of fear of rejection. Why should I watch a pornographic movie or video when I can easily go outside, talk to a woman, and make love to her because she has an emotional connection with me? Choosing love over sex is a no-brainer.
I must have a real, honest connection with a woman. Virtual connections aren’t the same. Humans need affection. They need the warmth of another person’s touch. Excuse me if I sound corny or overly-romantic, but I must get this message across: Love is part of being human. There is nothing like being loved by a woman and loving her because you care, because you proved to her that you’re better than all of the dim-witted, cold-hearted men, and because you have a strong, emotional bond with her.
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