Try To Believe

Life can seem so unfair to so many hard-working adults.

Here’s a scenario: You get up in the morning, work your nine-to-five job, maybe take care of your kids if you’re a stay-at-home parent.

And then, (if you’re like me) you think: “is this all there really is?”

Every day, we wake up to whatever reality we have created for ourselves.

I believe that: in the beginning of our lives, we have little to no control over our own reality. Our parents and/or guardians have to help us until we reach the age where we are capable of thinking for ourselves.

I grew up in a working-class background. My Dad has an elementary school education, and my mom is a high-school dropout. Sometimes, I feel life is unfair because my parents didn’t have the opportunity to attend a community college or university.

 

Maybe that’s why I had trouble graduating from high school?

I used to feel intimidated by other kids whose parents had a high school education and/or college degrees. My parents are good people, but it’s difficult for me to express my enthusiasm for education when they don’t have much of an education themselves.

I watch my father spend much of his free-time watching television.

There are so many better things to do besides watch T.V.!

It’s like my dad isn’t aware of how short life really is. And, my mom does nothing but house chores. She often complains that she doesn’t have enough free time to go outside, learn to drive, get a job.

But, like I said, she creates her own reality.

So then, I think to myself:

“Is it up to me to change things around? Am I to lead a greater life than my father, to be (metaphorically speaking) a King?”

It’s a big change.

For someone to “jump” from a low social class to the highest social class.

Many people just like me have been shunned for wanting to believe in something, unorthodox. I don’t even care about money. I just want it so I can provide!

  * In real-life, these two houses would never be in the same neighborhood.

I don’t care about the situation that you’re in.

Have faith in the universe, for it always has faith in you. 

 

 

 

 

 

Words Are Our Power

Powerful words come with powerful intent. Where you have passion, strength, courage and determination, you can accomplish anything.

See Light In A Different Perspective

A lot of people live their lives in fear. This happens so often that it becomes contagious. Living your life to please others isn’t a life worth living. Our creator gave us a soul because he wants us to fulfill our destinies. Physically, we are human, but deep down inside we’re spiritual beings.

We’re so caught up in our own life problems that we forget how truly magnificent the universe is. Planetary forces constantly moves us forward. Yet, we hesitate, we fear, we have moments where we start to doubt ourselves. Why? What’s the point of living a life filled with grief? I know for certain that I’m going to live my life because it’s worth living. When people say they’re worthless, they’re causing so much harm to themselves. There is no point in committing suicide. There is no point in giving up because we can’t.  I believe that there is something live for. Everyone has a passion. Everyone can feel loved. That’s why I am passionate about life. I am committed to making others feel inspired, passionate, and most importantly, loved.

 

I Used To Feel Lost And Confused

I’m at a point in my life where I literally force myself to study the tactics and rules used by the business professionals to become rich. Even if I have lots and lots of cash, I do not plan on scamming people. My Hood River community must have a business like no other, and they’re going to get the benefits of feeling well without being ripped off.

 Throughout my teenage years, I was lost, and I had no clue of who I was as a person. Insecurity, sweaty palms, negative thoughts, cravings for sex and love, and much much more were flooding my dopamine-lacking brain and lethargic body. I didn’t even have the balls to talk to women I was attracted to. 

But today is a new day. I’ve had a few relapses. I used to ejaculate tons and tons, but now I’m building my self-control. (Masturbating and watching porn is a thing of the past.) I know what you’re thinking: I was a nasty man. The truth of the matter is that I had issues that no one seemed to help me with. 

During the day, I seem like a timid, soft-spoken individual. Women may think that I’m shy, or that I have low self-esteem. And yet, I am not shy or timid nor do I have low self-esteem. I was just scared to approach beautiful women. I was afraid of rejection. I felt as if rejection was similar to dying. Eventually, as I progressed into my twenties, I got over my fear. Do you know how I did it? I realized that it was just an illusion. Women are actually more afraid of talking to men than men are afraid of talking to women. By not expressing myself, I was holding back on so much. 

One of my goals for now is to enjoy my years of youth. I have a little less than ten years left before I turn 30, twenty years until I turn 40, thirty years until I turn 50, and fourty years until I turn 60. Sure, I will definitely be able to live past sixty, but I can’t procrastinate and put off all of my goals until I’m a senior citizen. 

I was just scared to approach beautiful women. I was afraid of rejection. I felt as if rejection was similar to dying.

It’s almost 3:00 am in the morning, and I’m almost finished writing this blog. One thing I know is that I’ve been putting off so much in my life because of fear of rejection. Why should I watch a pornographic movie or video when I can easily go outside, talk to a woman, and make love to her because she has an emotional connection with me? Choosing love over sex is a no-brainer. 

I must have a real, honest connection with a woman. Virtual connections aren’t the same. Humans need affection. They need the warmth of another person’s touch. Excuse me if I sound corny or overly-romantic, but I must get this message across: Love is part of being human. There is nothing like being loved by a woman and loving her because you care, because you proved to her that you’re better than all of the dim-witted, cold-hearted men, and because you have a strong, emotional bond with her. 

My Fear of Rejection

        I know that there’s lot of people out there who could probably debate on this topic, but I’m going to be upfront and honest with everyone. I have emotional and confidence issues when it comes to asking girls out on dates. That’s one of the reasons I’m still single.
        My biggest fear is that they will laugh or poke fun at me, and then they will call me ugly. Sometimes, I even feel like they will tell their friends that a “creep” just tried to get their number.
        Still, I fantasize about being in a relationship because I want to have those same feelings that I read and write about; girls fascinate me, but I can’t tell any girl (besides my mom on certain occasions) things about me. Most of them don’t take me seriously anyways.
        Unfortunately most girls my age would most likely consider me to be a “nice” guy. I guess I do fall under those terms. I never went to any of those dances at my high school or anything like that. To me, prom just seemed so overrated, and I didn’t want to take part in an activity that didn’t benefit me at the time. But I was wrong. You only get that chance once in your life. Sadly, I was suffering from mental health issues, so I had to leave school.
        It sounds silly that someone like myself can have such a hard time getting a girl, but it is a true statement, and it’s actually quite common. Every now and then, I like blaming my mental health issues for the reason I’m single. There are some girls that are actually mean though.